Posts tagged acting
Posts tagged acting
Studying lines…#actorslife (Taken with Instagram)
I keep not having experience to get a job
When I need jobs to have experience
I keep not being a member of acting unions to be eligible for union jobs
When I need union jobs to become a member
THROW ME A BONE HERE, UNIVERSE
once again, it is here
Parting is such sweet sorrow…
(This is accurate, and appropriate, being the sweet yet sorrowful parting of the play this quote is from)
(just had to point that out)
(you can continue on with your regularly scheduled tumbling now)
(that is all)
It’s for an original play as part of the Baltimore Playwrights’ Festival. Here is my character description:
Maddy White, 18, white, high-strung, overachiever, overdosing on ADD medication to get an edge on schoolwork and hallucinating as a result.
When I first read that I was like, oh so basically high school Annie Edison from Community, when she was Little Annie Adderall. My work here is definitely a bit inspired by that of Alison Brie.
Totally cashews. As in nuts.
Baltimore, have mercy please!!
Today I was able to laze but tomorrow I’m performing. Black jacket, black boots, long pants….
which would usually be good odds except I won the one of the two that doesn’t pay.
I’m taking the role, but I’m still bummed. Mainly because I’d let myself get emotionally attached to the professional one which I shouldn’t have done because that’s always when you lose out. The community one I just auditioned because it was convenient without much planning or investment and then today I went to callbacks and saw I was the only girl there: “Oh you’re already cast,” they said, “we just want you to read opposite the other guys” and I’m like oh, that was easy.
But the actor’s life, ah it is not.
Still, it’s who I am.
First, an introduction:
There are sorority girls, and then there are sorority girls. That is to say, there are girls who happen to be in sororities, but are also actual people (I know several who are kind and lovely) and then there are Lifetime movie-esque mean and/or vapid and/or satanic sorority girls. Fictional, right? Or, if not, the sorority backdrop is surely an unfortunately perpetuated stereotype attributed to that type of girl, right?
But then again, stereotypes come from somewhere…
So. I was in a play last year with a group of girls who give these stereotypes credence. I will not name names because (a) this is the internet, even if it’s my tumblr and I never think anyone is reading it, but still - internet and (b) I may be bitter and upset and frustrated, but I do not drag people’s names through the mud. Unlike - well yeah, these girls. One in particular, who will continue to remain nameless but we’ll call her Regina George for right now.
Needless to say, I do not look back on this particular theatrical experience very fondly. I was lonely because I did not fit in, nor did I want to fit in, with these people I was forced to spend so much time with. Even if I sometimes don’t get along with people as friends I can sometimes respect them as artists and hard workers but no - they rehearsed AND performed drunk, with a big old bottle of wine backstage.
And then there was the gay thing. Me being bisexual, and them treating it like the plague. They, most frequently our dear Regina George, asked questions like “but how can two girls date when one is always going to be obviously hotter than the other one? They made comments like “I don’t buy…bi. Sorry, I just think you’re one or the other, you know?” I kid you not. I tried to explain things gently from my point of view but refrained from angry tirades because either way, I’d have to spend hours of rehearsal with them and the awkward that already was would just get worse if I had to be soapbox girl all the time. So I took it in stride and complained to my friends later about what I was putting up with.
And then there was the other gay thing. One of these girls was playing a guy who gets in an affair with Regina George - so, two girls kissing. This was what first prompted the wine-drinking. “But we have to drink to do this,” explained Regina George. Now that they were safely drunk during the girl-kissing, they advertised it to market the show “REGINA GEORGE AND OTHER SORORITY GIRL ARE TOTALLY MAKING OUT IN THIS SHOW! SO HOTTTT GO SEE ITT” all on facebook and other online gossip forums catered to the school. People were talking about how hot it would be and sure, it was fine aesthetically but they had reduced it from relevant to the play to your typical Friday-night-frat-party drunken straight girl makeout to impress the guys. Not so hot to me. My character had to break it up. I joked about the irony of it and that I didn’t want the audience to hate me for it hahaha but really, didn’t bother me.
So this play was a year ago. What’s the big problem today??? Well here it finally is:
I got lunch with a friend, M, today and we talk theatre often so he brought up this play and mentioned that he was recently discussing it with Regina George. M said it was really hot and I was like ehh, not my favorite time. M goes yeah, Regina George said ‘that I was so into her and that I “came onto all of the girls in the cast during the show,” and I would go backstage totally naked and try to get with them.’
On an um-back-up-your-facts-please level, I didn’t have any costume changes in this show, so I was never changing backstage. So unless I just decided to show up naked that day…HUH?? Second of all, I NEVER came onto any of them, not even in a misinterpreting way. I wasn’t attracted to any of them physically and even less so in anything else (see Lifetime sorority description above - big turnoff for me). I thought Regina George was pretty, sure, but once she opened her mouth, any aesthetic appeal she had was pretty much zapped. I barely talked to them unless I had to, so unless she took my obviously sarcastic joke about oh-no-I-don’t-want-to-stop-the-kiss-lol thing seriously (and if that’s the case HOW THICK ARE YOU, REGINA GEORGE???) then I barely had time to even say anything that could possibly be twisted, so it’s just an outright lie here.
ALSO, and this is probably my biggest frustration, even if I was into any of them, which I wasn’t, I don’t go around hitting on people!!!! Yes, I’m bisexual. No, I’m not attracted to everything with a pulse. Yes, Ithink a lot of people are pretty. No, I don’t want to date, or even sleep with every pretty person I meet. Another no, I don’t ‘come on’ to people in general! Especially not straight girls who I don’t even like or want and for the most part don’t even find that pretty! And I don’t like calling people even ‘not pretty,’ you know? Just as a general thing, I don’t like to criticize people’s looks. But here I can’t help thinking: How full of yourself can you possibly be??? NOT EVERYONE THINKS YOU’RE HOT/WANTS TO TAP THAT SO GET. OVER. IT. PLEASE.
I was briefly worried about who else Regina George spread this around to, but I’m calm now and know that anyone who knows me would laugh at how false that was and how deluded she is. Just, come on. I’m usually thankful to be among theatre people, believing that they’re LGBT friendly by necessity of the culture, but the stupid homophobia persists. And I hate that stereotype so much! I’ve known it to be particularly bad for bisexuals but it exists and sucks too for gay guys and lesbians (the idea that gay guys will hit on every male no matter what and lesbians will hit on every female no matter what). We are all people here!!! Why can’t everyone see that?
Regina George, you’re reducing me to a shallow stereotype. I don’t appreciate it one bit and I’m trying to do so back to you. Calling you Regina George first of all, and helping delineate your posse as Lifetime stock bitch characters - yeah, it feels nice and fair on a superficial ranty level, but really…I just wonder why. Why would you think this? Did you even really think it or are you just using my identity against me as petty gossip for other people? Are you insecure and this is just you trying to remind yourself and others of how “hot” you are? (PS that wasn’t me calling you hot and coming on to you by the way, hence the quotation marks!!!). For your sake and others, I hope you work out whatever personal issues you have and evolve past this:
And hopefully, Regina George-who-isn’t-really-Regina-George, it doesn’t take you being hit by a bus to do that.
See? I’m nice!
I am playing a cross-country runner in my show opening in August so I plan to finally start running. This isn’t really for method acting reasons, but I’ve been planning to start running for a long while and just would watch TV every time instead. I am much better at planning than execution when it comes to exercise regimens. But we ran for a good 15 minutes in yesterday’s rehearsal, so I figured, hey - I can do this on my own time. I’ve been a decent runner before in my life, I can get there again. And here’s the push!
and it was lovely!
I really hope to work my way up to larger roles, yes, I’ve been a bit spoiled there, but I am so much prouder of being a part of a professional, beautiful, quality production than getting a lead role by default in a show that doesn’t strive to be as good as it can. I’m not even talking about the age or experience level of the people involved, or the size and expensiveness of its set, costumes and tech resources, because everyone has to start somewhere, but I’d been frustrated with theatre that is too easily satisfied with itself. I want to be challenged, and even though I have just a small part now, CSC has the challenges there, so it’s a good first post-grad gig.
Plus, I cannot wait to learn combat! Sword fighting! Hurray!
This is a publicity still of Tybalt and Romeo. Doesn’t it look awesome???
I was an extra filming the new show VEEP back in October and apparently I was featured in the promo and probs in the actual episode! A friend I hadn’t spoken to in more than a year facebook tagged me congrats on my cameo! Must see!!!